I'm going to do my first clinic since daughter lost the baby, and I'm frightened. Frightened that I will cry, not listen properly, be absent minded,but I'm most frightened that I will lose it. That when a patient moans about her heartburn, her puffy ankles, her spots, her stretchmarks, how tired she is, how uncomfortable she is, how baby keeps her awake because he's kicking, how she doesn't want to be pregnant anymore I will look her in the eye and say 'You are lucky your baby is still alive'. I won't though, I'll touch her knee, I'll look her in the eye and say 'It will all be worth it in the end'.
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(16.3.06 23:46) muse I am so sad for you. I don't know how you get past soemthing like that.I am grieving too and it is so hard. My thoughts are with you.Hope you get through your workday with thankful mums not the whinghy ones.XXX000 |
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heidiscrim / Website (17.3.06 07:57) Only just caught up with you, so awfully sorry to hear the sad news. You are one incredible woman, midwife, Mum and Granny and I for one will be counting my blessings today especially, and thinking of you and family. |
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(17.3.06 18:03) A little poem for you and Peanut's mummy: You've a little star in heaven now, shining down on you, and a little angel in your life that will help to guide you through. xxxx |
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(18.3.06 14:33) x x x |
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(20.3.06 11:12) Really really know how that feels - and you're right, you'll do all the professional bits and be screaming inside at them. Make sure you've got somewhere to scream on the outside too - even if it's only your blog.... |